Well, it's Fall. Another season has come and gone, yet I have changed so much in the past few months. I am so happy now. My room is no longer a reminder of how alone I felt a year ago, but it is back to being a place where I can dance to music and go crazy. I've thought about it now and again but I'm listening to happier music now, even. I mean it wasn't like I was really upset during the spring but I never really felt like I was truly over what had happened, where as now I do. The past few months have served as closure for a few different things. Seeing J and everyone again was fantastic! It made me come to terms with leaving the first time because I know that no matter what happens, we all love each other and can go back to being so comfortable with each other even after a year of not being there. The day before I left to visit everyone in Istanbul, I talked to Doctor and have a new outlook on everything. I saw her in the halls today and didn't really feel extreme anger or sadness, but just some uneasiness which is a lot better than before.
I was also talking to my friend on skype not long ago. I told my viking friend that I'm happier about living in Ottawa now. I still miss Istanbul like crazy and can have mini breakdowns but they're not as bad either because I know I can miss it but that doesn't mean I can't be happy here. It's a good mix. I've been in a relationship for a month an a bit and I couldn't be happier. He just makes me love who I am because I get to be with him.
I'm just so content with where I am.
Love,
Brisbane.
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