What if I had said yes? Would that have changed things?
I hate having regrets and worrying about what will happen compared to what could have happened.
Why can't I just stop worrying about school?
I know I'm doing fine but I can never feel like I'm good enough.
What if one day she decides enough is enough?
I don't want to lose you because you were one of my best friends in Istanbul and I love you even if we don't talk very often.
Why was I so stupid?
I just want to know why I was lied to for the better part of a year.
What's going to happen when I see everyone again?
It's going to be fun but I don't want to have any regrets.
Am I going to be as good of a Co-Prez as everyone thinks I'll be?
Sometimes I feel like I've already let people down.
Is there something wrong with me?
Thoughts like those are always on my mind and I can never feel satisfied with who I am and what is going on.
I just want someone to tell me that I'm just being silly and actually convince me of it. I hate it when people lecture me about it, only making me think of it more. I just want someone to come along and just say a few words for at least a moment of peace. Carpe Diem.
Love,
Brisbane.
P.S. 11 days
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