Everything But You

If you take a look at my life- it's pretty good right now. Student elections were on Thursday and I'm now co-prez with my friend which I'm excited about, my grades are really good and it feels like I finally have everything I was looking for (last semester especially). But I just realized a major part of my life is missing- you.

I read your letter again. It's the third time I've read it since you sent it to me a few months ago. It's also the third time I cried while reading it. I have no idea what is going on. What has been going on. I mean our emotions keep going back and forth between happiness, love, sadness and anger. It feels like I'll never truly get over you- just that I may not think about my feelings for you as often. Sometimes I wish I never moved away and met you because then I wouldn't be able to miss you as much as I do. I know I'm seeing you in almost 30 days but it wont be for long enough.

I just miss you so much. I miss you hugs still. The slight sent of you and ohh did you smell good aha. It sounds kind of creepy but I miss it too. When you sent me my friendship bracelet, it smelled like you and it made me the think of every hug we had and I broke down then and there. Sometimes I do regret telling you that I didn't want a long distance relationship. That part is still true but I wanted to check off 'yes' so bad when you put the cliche "will you be my girlfriend" at the end of your letter. I still do want to check it off in a way.

I just miss you. And you wrote that you learned to appreciate the phrase Carpe Diem in your letter. I learned that from you.

Love,
Brisbane

P.S. 32 days until I'll be in the same city as you again. And only a few more from there until I get another one of those memorable hugs. I miss you.