No, seriously- this week feels like it's on turbo drive or something. I guess cause it's been kind of a weird, and busy week but it doesn't feel busy. I mean I've been doing homework and different things for school like there's no tomorrow which is great because I'm busy but it's weird how fast this week is going.
So on Sunday, I finally made a decision which is probably going to freak me out for two weeks and ultimately decide what my senior year will be like for me. I decided to run for Co-Prez. You may ask yourself "Why the fuck is this chick running for co-prez of a school she just wanted to get away from for the past few months?" but it's because I wanted to do something with those emotions. I wanted something good to come out of everything I've been feeling. I want to decrease the number of other people that are or will feel like that. I want to make a difference. Sure, this may not be the smartest choice for my acid reflux but fuck it- I will beat it and I have learned to deal with it. And I don't mind being busy- it's just stress that gets to me but again, I will learn to deal with it. The thing is though, there are two spots and three people are running. I'm going against the two badass people. Not badass competitive-like but my best friend since JK who is amazing and is probably getting one spot because she is so well-known and such a hard worker, as well as another girl who does so much for the school. I mean when you look at it like that, it makes me think "what have I gotten myself into" but the thing is- if I do get a spot, then that means that I got it for a reason, and if I don't, then hey- vice-prez it is, you know? I'm not in it for the glory or the power but just the ability to help make the school really awesome.
There are some things that I'm worried about though- the campaigning. I'm such an awkward person I have no idea what to do and at the same time, I'm running against two great people so I don't want to be all intense and go for the cupcakes, buttons, posters and so much more. I want to keep it simple but effective. Funny but not over done. I mean I know I can make a great first impression especially if it's with a small group of people like for the interview I have to do, and I know I can make a killer speech- but only if I can write a killer speech, and I need people's interest beforehand. I'll try and figure it out though. Start a facebook group or something... aha I dunno. Wish me luck though! Tell your friends if you go to my school? aha I dunno.
Another thing I just realized a few moments ago is how I regret the times that I'm not busy enough. I mean I'm busy right now but when I am overloaded, I think of nothing but what comes next. Since I've been busy as hell the past few weeks, I haven't really been thinking and of course the first thought I get when I do think is how I feel kind of empty in a way. My sister has a boyfriend and they are so cute together. She always tells me stuff and her boyfriend and her go together like PB & J. The thing is, I'm jealous of how she feels. I mean the way she talks about him (not in a make-me-vomit kind of way) and how she always goes out with him. I just kind of want that you know? I just kind of want to like someone in that way and have them like me back. And don't pull one of those "well is there anyone you can think of?" cause there isn't anyone you should think about- if you like someone, it should come automatically. I mean there are a lot of great guys that I know but I just don't feel that way towards anyone. I don't want to look for a relationship so I guess I'm still waiting for that cute relationship where the guy will take me on a date without telling me where we're going and then take me to a random museum and then get chinese take-out and watch Batman afterwards or something. Yep- that is probably one of my ideas of a perfect date. Oh, and chocolate. Lots of chocolate :) I dunno, there are just too many cute relationships going on, it feels and I'm just waiting for my turn.
I think that's pretty much all that's on my mind right now other than how badass Batman is and shit... and how I should probably get stuff done soon because I've finally been putting stuff off.. eh whatever. Carpe Diem.
Love,
Brisbane
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